It’s a serious question. My whole life people have not liked me very much…to the point that it is VERY evident.

I went on an MS rock climbing trip and we were supposed to do a Zoom call this week to catch up. We texted when we were available and the first thing I said was I could not do 8 PM on Wednesday but only 8:30 PM or later.

This is actually what was texted:

This was my response…after they created the meeting and shared the invitation for 8 PM on Wednesday:

I can’t be imagining. Can I? They still have not responded hours later.

I hate myself so much. I wish I was never born and then shit like this happens, and its not the first time. I don’t have any friends at all because there is something wrong with me.

I don’t know what it is but I should be put down like a dog. I never asked to live in this world. I have not wanted to be here since I was 13. Why do I have to when I didn’t choose this? It was forced on me. I wish this country had legal medical assisted death.